And – here we go again!

Yup – back to school, back to routine, back to early bed times, packing lunches, car-rider lines, shorter days… I LOVE IT! But here’s the thing, based on my history and my more creative nature – I probably really shouldn’t — or this doesn’t fit the general idea of who people think I am… or who I think I am….

I lead teacher training – I teach people how to teach Yoga! What a wonderful gift that has been given to me. Each time I spend a weekend with the groups I learn, I change, I evolve, I become more “me” or a different part of me appears I should say. This past weekend was one of those weekends. This group is so dynamic – not one weekend goes by where we don’t laugh, cry, get frustrated, angry, happy etc.. You know, it’s like PMS all weekend long (i kid, but not really :))…  This past weekend was particularly amazing – but this one moment will stay with me forever. We were discussing the use of music in class – should you play it? What kind? Why? Why not etc.. on went the conversation.

At one point I was expressing that the music should make sense based on who YOU are. So, if I were to go in and try to play – oh, some crazy weird rock n roll music – It wouldn’t make sense. Then a puzzled look came over a students face – so I asked what they were thinking… and she said this “there are so many parts of me and who I am, so my music won’t always be the same, right?”... I had a long pause and just in that moment I almost cried. YES.. YES this is true – Music is an expression, it tells a story and like every class we create – while there is something that is familiar and grounding – it’s ART…and part of what makes it art is the music — it should be an expression of what you are trying to convey – what it is you were feeling when you put it together, what you want your class to feel. It’s one of the ways  a class goes from being a bunch of shapes to an experience.

So, here we are now at the title of the blog… Here we go again – my daughters are starting 5th grade and 7th grade. Each year we start the same way. By me telling them they can do ANYTHING they want. BE who THEY want to be. Break the mold – find their voice – express themselves – BE MAGICAL, HAPPY, STRONG.. Be courageous, be BOLD, be SAD, be YOU… Be MORE than YOU!! I get to remind myself of this while hopefully delivering a message to my dear daughters that will stay with them FOREVER — So that they don’t have to wonder how they are an artist and a project manager at the same time…. they will just understand it’s just a BEAUTIFUL part of them….

Love and Peace – Marcia

“Be Yourself, everyone else is already taken” – Oscar Wilde

 

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ASSUMPTION, ASSUMPTIONS, ASSUMPTIONS…

(Please notice that ASS is the first part of that word… so don’t make them people!! otherwise – your a you know what:))

I’ll be straight up and to the point. The worst thing in life is to have people mis-understand you. But even worse then that, is if you misunderstand something or someone and you don’t ask you then create judgements. This is the worst. THESE are ASS-umptions…

Ahhh, the fluctuations of the mind those nasty little critters. Recently I was in a situation where my actions were being questioned, I’ll say that I was told I was not being judged, but really when you are questioning someone – that’s judgement. As I processed it all, I thought – how lucky I am to have this practice of yoga to help me really be in this place of understanding what is really going on. Many years ago – heck – even a few years ago, this would have brought me to tears. I would have dwelled on it for days, and probably would have retreated to some really not so awesome place of self-doubt and move into a space of not trusting.

But as I sit here today what I can say is this: I will never make this mistake. I have now learned first hand what happens when you sit back, watch and don’t ask questions. When you make assumptions in your mind, you allow space and too much time go by that fabulous stories are created. 

I love the 4 agreements by Don Miguel Ruiz. I always go back to these things when I’m faced with tough situations. Mainly because to me – they are like a little cheat sheet for my yoga sutras! If you aren’t familiar with them they are:

1. Be Impeccable with your Word Speak with integrity. Say only what you mean. Avoid using the Word to speak against yourself or to gossip about others. Use the power of your Word in the direction of truth and love.

2. Don’t Take Anything Personally
Nothing others do is because of you. What others say and do is a projection of their own reality, their own dream. When you are immune to the opinions and actions of others, you won’t be the victim of needless suffering.

3. Don’t Make Assumptions
Find the courage to ask questions and to express what you really want. Communicate with others as clearly as you can to avoid misunderstandings, sadness and drama. With just this one agreement, you can completely transform your life.

4. Always Do Your Best

Your best is going to change from moment to moment; it will be different when you are healthy as opposed to sick. Under any circumstance, simply do your best, and you will avoid self-judgment, self-abuse, and regret.

As I move through this recent “situation” I have found myself in – I like to take time to evaluate myself – always – since I can’t do anything to change other people (learned that lesson  LONG time ago) and ask if I’ve been doing my best, being impecable with my word, not making assumptions and NOT taking things personally… for at the end of the day – other people’s judgements on me or you or whoever are THEIR own projections of THEIR OWN reality! 

Be good people, ask questions, be up front, don’t take things personally and DO the BEST you CAN! 

Love, Peace and Light – M.

Music….

Today I’m spending my time doing what used to be my LEAST favorite part of my job managing Flow… and that is the BOOKS! Yes, I’ve said it, I enjoy doing the books. Once you understand it – it’s actually quite simple and meditative. Do I still make mistakes? Yup, but they can all be fixed and the world doesn’t come crashing down. For family and friends who know me well you are probably like – WHHHAAATTT??? (insert – Marcia pretty much failed math… but at least didn’t have to be bribed to be a cheerleader in order to pass, that’s another post, another time.)

Because of this “lack of intelligence” I seemed to present during my middle school – high school career – I clearly remember being told by my guidance counselor that I would never go to college and never amount to much – I should just go to vocational school and learn a trade…. (inser long pause)…

A of all – what is WRONG with that? and B of all – why would ANYONE ever say that to a 14 year old???

I was an artist, a musician, an athlete and an “average”student. I had so much in me and in that moment in time, a lot changed for me. A fire built inside to PROVE them wrong, but at the same time this mission was filled with doubt – it clouded my heart and all I felt I could do was “try” to use my brain – it seemed there was little hope for that, or so I had been told.

Today while I’ve been working on this task – I’ve been listening to an artist by the name of Birdy. I found out about her at a dance competition (who would have guessed) this past summer. One of Bella’s teammates got this amazing new solo to dance to it. It’s been stuck in my mind since I heard it. It’s haunting and literally moved me to tears. Watching this beautiful young dancer dance to it also brought chills to my body.

It’s the end of the chorus that gets me every time…

People help the people
And if you’re homesick, give me your hand and I’ll hold it
People help the people
Nothing will drag you down
Oh and if I had the brain, Oh and if I had the brain
I’d be cold as a stone and rich as the fool
That turned all those good hearts away

As I’ve been working on the books, doing my thing, I put this song on repeat. I couldn’t figure out why until I really paid attention to the last part of the chorus. Most of us let our minds take over our hearts, we let our brain rule every part of our life. I used to so much so that I thought I could NEVER keep the books properly. That I would never be able to x, y or z because of my mind. The mind keeps us so far from our own truth’s, from reaching out and helping others and just doing what is right.

I try to teach my girls to listen to their hearts, to not get caught up in the garbage that rattles around in the mind – the “mind stuff” we call it in yoga. Know what is real, what is the truth and let all the other crap go….

This song really has nothing to do with keeping the books, passing math or anything. It has to do with HUMAN connection, being real vs being your brain… If we all only could see the beauty of our hearts – we might be a more powerful world.

Until next time….. People Help the People

I think it’s funny that I’m doing this…

I’m not sure where to start – and or why I’m sitting here coffee in hand writing my first blog today. But I think it’s time 🙂

For those of you who know me, you know I rarely take time out to do anything for me. For those of you who don’t know me – don’t care about that really. I’m a mom, a wife, a sister to many, a daughter, yoga teacher, business manager, executive, musician, artist and an athlete… So where’s the time?

Things have gotten a little crazy this past year, pneumonia, pseudo broken back, hip/leg issues.. I lost a friend to cancer, a friend found out she had cancer, my friend(s) had babies and my friend lost a baby you name it – it was kinda funny – in a not so laughable kind of way. But it put life into perspective for me as MY life seemed perfect. But because I wasn’t paying attention, I didn’t realize it wasn’t.

That’s the thing about life – and it’s one of the things that my yoga mat has taught me. To stop, and pay attention – but some where along the way this year I paid MORE attention to the things outside of me – or I should say – outside of MY life than I did to the things inside my life. Why? It was easier that way.

So to steal from my friend I’ll say it “shit just got real” and that is life. That is yoga, that is me – it’s you, it’s all of us. For those of us who try to pretend it’s all easy – we should stop. But we also shouldn’t let it cripple us. It’s not the end, it’s only the beginning. During my morning perusal of Facebook (insert wasting time while waiting for my coffee) to see what fun things are going on in the “yoga world” A friend posted this:

“For what it’s worth… it’s never too late, or in my case too early, to be whoever you want to be. There’s no time limit. Start whenever you want. You can change or stay the same. There are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. I hope you see things that startle you. I hope you feel things you never felt before. I hope you meet people who have a different point of view. I hope you live a life you’re proud of, and if you’re not, I hope you have the courage to start all over again.”

~ Eric Roth, from the screenplay “The Curious Case of Benjamin Button” – adaptation of F. Scott Fitzgerald’s original short story ~

So, I suppose it’s not so funny I’m dong this after all… 🙂

Namaste ya’ll… M.